Tuesday, August 23, 2005


I got fired on Saturday.

By myself.

I realised I could not do it any more. It was getting increasingly difficult for me to juggle my crazy schedules, my job, my studies and generally having a life. I'd started to realise that lately I'd not been able to concentrate on my tutoring. And if I don't do a good job, I fire myself.

And that's what I did. And now I am really sad.

Not only is it a severe blow to my 'concerts and shoes' budget, it's a personal loss. Because I adore the little girl.

Dear professional siao, I will miss you and the most insightful and delightful science lessons we've had over the last one year. I will miss your atrocious English and the many jokes we have shared and the hideous laughter. And your ankle-licking dog. And the indecent proposals I got.

You're gonna get a new science tutor soon. And unlike me, he/she will probably not ask you to state the difference between 'breathing' and 'respiration' in every single lesson. You must be so glad about that.

But you know what? It's probably wrong of me to feel this way, but I secretly hope that you don't like him/her as much you like me.

I sure do hope you never tell your new tutor how many uncles Lily has.

That's our own little secret, okay?


virdi said...

no more tuitions?? or resigned from the JOB???

Sayesha said...

Yup, no more tuition :(

Job toh mast chal rahi hai, thanks to the kids' fan mail :)

Gaurav said...

u seriously resigned ??

Sayesha said...

Hey Gaurav,
Nahin yaar, didn't resign from the job.
Fired myself from tuition.

croondoodle said...

am sure wasn't easy to do that. still feel the vacuum eh especially when it becomes almost part of your life? both of
you...hmmmph! kya karein =(...

Kroopa Shah (Kr00pz) said...

I didn't understand - you fired yourself?
The only way I can think of it is that you resigned.

Sayesha said...

Yeah, it's quite heart-breaking.

I quite literally fired myself for incompetency. I wasn't being able to put my heart into so many things at the same time, and something had to go, and tutoring was the only thing I could let go of :(

Sushant Bhatia said...

Sorry to hear that you fired yourself. At least you can take solace in the fact that it was the ethical thing to do.

Sayesha said...

Hi Sushant,
Yeah, it was the right thing to do... and the right thing to do is usually the hardest, isn't it?

(Aaarghh DDLJ again! Arz000n is gonna kill me!) :P

Sahil said...

Dude, all this talk about DDLJ is taking its toll on me too man!

I had the longest dream about SRK last night - was showing him around my city. And with every chick we bumped into, he was marofying dialogues from DDLJ (chicks going gaga over him mind u). He's such a crowd-pleaser man. It's nauseating.

Keshav said...

You were not giving it your best shot so you resigned ? hmm.. interesting :). btw, "how many uncles lily has" was a real funny post !!

Shuuro said...

Life is short and we can't do all the things we like, prioritizing is very important as you noted. Yes indeed, generally right decisions are always difficult to make and many people remain indecisive or postpone because of it and making it harder for themselves, eventually they are forced to take decision under pressure (which may influence their judgment).

Honestly, i was expecting a blog on this kid in the near future and therefore i'm quite sad from this thought that i wouldn't be reading anymore of her. From your writings i had this image of her(associated with little kids i know and their deeds) and had liking towards her.

Angelsera said...


I thought only girls dreamt of taking SRK ard...din know u too.. :)

Sayesha said...

Hmmm... 40-year-old Tondumal Gotiwala who fantasises about dating SRK... well, well...

On another note, kahan they aap? Missed you man! :)

Yeah, I wasn't being as good at it as I used to, really had no time to plan the lessons properly, and I did not want to just turn up and teach in a disorganised way... Sigh, all good things must come to an end I suppose...

I'll miss writing about her too. We sure made one crazy tutor-tutee combo! :)

There's a lot to Sahil you dunno... Beware, he's a tricky one!

Arz000n said...

Ohh okie...so you resigned
Now what?

No more of ur eyes on that magazine you were working for?

Sahil said...

Angelsera 'n Sayesha,

Sahil doesn't fantasize. He doesn't need to. As for why SRK was with me, well that's cos he seemed to be losing his touch with the girls - so I was giving him a few pointers.


//Missed you man! :)

I know.

I had turned into a silent reader temporarily (not my choice - damn internet connection was crappy). And looks like lots has been going on since. Lekin hum abh aa gaye hai, time to restore peace and order back into the system. Virdi beware! haha :P

Sahil said...

Arzoon (Sayesha - i'm gonna take this one for you),

Yaar, she fired herself from her tuition job - something she did on the side. She still has her full time job, her job at the magazine where she is an editor. So she's not jobless. She's not faltu. She fired herself from her tuition job coz she had too much to do.

But if u're still feeling sorry for her, and you want to send her gifts/money, you can send them to me, and i'll make sure she gets it (well, most of it that is).

Sayesha said...

Wah Wah Sahil, kya baat hai, aapko toh sab maloom hai hamaare baare mein! Aap aaye bahaar aayi. Abe oye Virdi kitthe hai tu??

Yeah, I still have my magazine job, but gave up tutoring (something I love and had been doing for the last six years!)

And since you're sending me gifts, here's my wish list:

- I'd like six pairs of high-heeled shoes, please. Two of them must be black, the rest I leave to you.

- One box of colourful chunky earrings and bracelets (no gold-coloured stuff, please)

- A big box of Kit Kats

Sahil, ok fine baba, you can keep one pair of the shoes, and maybe two pairs of earrings, and one bracelet. But the rest of Arz's gifts MUST reach me!

Sahil said...


I know more than you can imagine. I know that which you have said, that which you haven't said, that which you've thought about, and all that, which you haven't yet thought about. Humse kuch baat chupa nahin sakte. Yes, and I know what u're thinking RIGHT now as well.

errr.... uh.... no. Arz and all other gift senders - change of policy. Only CASH gifts allowed. Once you have sent enough, I MAY start accepting cheques.

Sayesha said...

Oh yeah?

And what am I thinking RIGHT now, Sahil?

Sahil said...

I won't say. Sahil's a gentleman, and he won't embarass you in front of your fan following.

Sayesha said...

Oh yeah?

Say it, my dear. I don't mind.

And I'm sure "fan following" won't mind either! :)

Sahil said...

Ok... u asked for it. Don't say I didn't warn you.

U were wondering how Sahil does it. He gets into your head and reads your thoughts. And how he makes u smile everytime u read his comments.

I wouldn't have posted this if you hadn't asked for it - so if u're embarassed, well too bad.

Siddhu said...

All the best, Sayesha. :).

Ravi said...

ok desicion made is made..

so, now will we be seeing a more brighter Sayesha..?

PuNeEt said...

Wooopss u resigned...

So whats planned...
All the best :-)


Drops Of Jupiter said...

That was a totally random post...wayyyy too much buildup for quitting on a tuition! Big deal!

Dont hate me

Drops Of Jupiter said...

I'm gonna try my luck and say... I don't mind taking up your tuition..i love teaching kids! And don't worry, I'll also use the money to buy new shoes..like I use all my money. ;-)

Sayesha said...

Thanks, Siddhu! :)

Waddya mean?? Should I be offended? :P

I still have my main job. Holding on to it like anything :)

I don't hate you. (Am trying out a new policy of not hating anyone.)
But you have to understand that this is my blog and everything that happens to my life IS A BIG DEAL on my blog.
Hate me if you want to.

ps: You live in the east? Ever taught primary Science? Can you handle my hyperactive professional siao? If the answer to all these is 'yes', when can I interview you? :)

Sahil said...

kya hua madame Sayesha?

Bolti bandh ho gayi na mera comment padh kar?

Hota hai. Hota hai.

Sayesha said...

Been waitin' up all day for my reply, haven't you?

//U were wondering how Sahil does it. He gets into your head and reads your thoughts. And how he makes u smile everytime u read his comments.

That's cute, Sahil. You should try it on girls it will actually work on.

Dude, you can spread all the Sahil-charm you've got, lekin yeh kudi na hansi na phansi.

Sahil said...


spamtaneous said...

wah wah...what a clean way of saying i quit... :-

abhi said...

We meet people ,we lose people.but thats life.I too remember a lot of people who moved away.especially those who borrowed cash frm me and never returned it.

Sayesha said...

Since I'm on the topics of ghazals today, may I just recite one for you:

Tum itna jo muskura rahe ho
Kya gham hai jisko chhupa rahe ho?

Sahil is no match for Sayesha! ;)

Yeah, the money-borrower-never-returners are the worst kind, man!

Sahil said...

errrr Sayesha,

//wah wah...what a clean way of saying i quit... :-

Spam was referring to your saying how u fired yourself.

usne meri baat hi nahin ki... lagta hai chaaro taraf bas mein hi nazar aa raha hoon. Hota hain. But don't be so intimidated my dear... i'm just your friendly neighbourhood Sahil. :)

Ravi said...

arey don't get offended.

there is scope for improvement even in the best ;)

spamtaneous said...

sahil is right :)

erens said...

you forget to make a back-up
give spirit to your health
make an improvisation

Sayesha said...

Theek theek hai hai! :)

Heyyyy you're not supposed to be on Sahil's side, man!

Errr... not sure if your comment is spam or a real one... :P

Arz000n said...

Im giving up doing charity work after that huge wish list :(

Maine mangi thi ek Magazine...with your eye on it...tumne mujhe woh bhi nahi di :(

Sayesha said...

You send me my wish list, I send you yours. What say? Deal? :)

Arz000n said...

You know whts a better deal?
I send you money..you send me the magazine..and the wish list attach to it...

then I wil go thru ur wish list and send u the cost to fulfill it

What say? Deal?? :D

I know Im evil at times....chorry...hehehe

Take care

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