So I had some good news at work. Brilliant news, in fact.
It was a proud moment for me. I was very happy.
I think.
But every now and then, my heart would sink. As if something was wrong somewhere and I could not figure it out. What was it that was not letting me fully celebrate my moment of glory? What was that odd feeling that was gnawing at a corner of my heart, causing such ups and downs? Why were my eyes teary, why was my heart breaking? One moment I would be so elated, and the very next, I would come crashing down. Something was not right still. What was missing? What was it?
It just didn't make sense. It was supposed to be all happy. Sayesha, happy happy happy. Happy!
But why was I sad?
And then I remembered the little girl.
The one on the red bicycle, rushing home from school after the annual day, almost tumbling off her bicycle in her excitement to get home, not even parking it properly, but just pushing it against the wall of the house, tearing through the door, "Mummy!!! See, I won I won! Your daughter is first!" And she ran and put the medals around her mother's neck, and placed the trophies in her arms. Her mother beamed with excitement, while her father quietly looked on with a smile on his face, not wanting to be part of the almost embarrassing mother-daughter drama, but proud nevertheless.
How tacky. Sounds like a chocolate ad, doesn't it?
But this scene is straight from my childhood.
And that's when I realised. That's what was missing.
Phone calls... emails... naah! Nothing quite beats family being there on the spot, physically present, to see our moment, to share it, to live it with us.
Perhaps that's why I was sad in spite of my happy news.
Because somewhere inside me, that little girl still lives, and just like the old days, she wants to dash through the door, show mom her report card and say, "Mummy! See, I won I won! Your daughter is senior editor!"
But she can't.
Damn these long distance relationships...
Friday, November 25, 2005
:) and yet :(
Posted by Sayesha at 22:22
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Congratulations sayesha!!
oh balle balle!! senior editor sayesha.. party time for all bloggers.. so where's the bash??? :)
and abt the long distance thingy,.. yeah got my share of experince on it.. sighhhh :(
..p..
hey!! first off, congratulations!! Sayesha, senior editor. Has a nice ring to it, dontcha think?? :)
And yeah, I totally understand what you mean. The little girl part actually brought tears to my eyes...cuz that is sooo me! :D I miss my family, I miss everything about them!! I miss hugging Mom, and teasing Dad...ah, those were the days...
But I'm going home in a week...so, yay!! I'm gonna cherish every moment I spend with them from now on...cuz I never realized just how much they mean to me till I came to S'pore. Long distance relationships can give u a lot of perspective on things...:)
Wonderfull!!!
You sure have a talent with words. You made a happy event look like a tear jerker. Im like...ihihih Sayesha is a Senior editor :(
Congratulations and good luck!!! :)
Tinku
#Humjoli,
O ji tussi phir se??
#Humjoli,
Yeah man... I miss them when I am happy, I miss them when I am sad, I miss them when I am hungry, I miss them man.. :(
#Chandra,
Thanks! :)
#Priya,
Bash? Yeah I do plan to bash Virdi up! Please feel free to join the party! :)
#Clueless,
Thanks, baby girl! :)
ps: Hey I heard about your alien exam! ;) All the best for the rest!
pps: Lucky you, going home! And all I have left in this year is two days of leave :/
ps: Give your mum a big HUGGG on my behalf, okie? :)
#Tinku,
Oops, missed your comment. I think we posted around the same time. Thanks man. :)
It is a very happy event, yes, but imagine if they were here and I could actually see their faces when I told them about it?? SIGH...!!
ok am i missing something now..!! today itself when a friend asked me 'when u going home?'
i said..i dont plan to, atleast for a few months..but man now i m missing them....
i should just leave before i create a scene here...:(
totally understand this feeling of urs...
even though im not very close to my family members... i miss them at times... esp after staying away for an year or so :(
mebbe its time for u to go home for a vacation :)
'senior editor' where did u mention that in ur post?
#Aethyr,
Take me with you! :'(
#Spammy,
Yeah man! I know what you mean! Every time I go home, I argue with them over something or the other, but then I come back and I miss them! :(
ps: I have only two days of leave left for this year. And workload's gonna get crazy next year, so I dunno when I'll go home...
//'senior editor' where did u mention that in ur post?
Offo theek se padh na! :P
//"Mummy! See, I won I won! Your daughter is senior editor!"
8:15 to 18:03...5 days a week...!!!
yeh toh hona hee thha!
Congratulations! way to go! =)
Congrats! About time that happened anyway ;)
congratulations on being promoted! But don't you feel that when you are away from your family for long, the times when you are together you cherish them more.. Just a thought... i may be wrong though... enjoy the celebrations!!
CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
great news!
you are right.. nothing can replace that...
but hey.. let that little girl stay there... u never know when those moments will be back..
all the best with the news!
and.. party hard!
:)
been through this. know exactly how u feel...
...if it makes you any happier...then i can tell you that your parents will be very proud of you today...wherever they are...far or near.
congratulations...keep walking...!
~a
Hi Sayehsa, I've been a silent visitor to ur blog in the last 4 months... time for me to share a moment with u here atleast now... CONGRATULATIONS!!! I like what u write... keep up the good work!!!
shabash mere sher errrr I mean sherni... :E
and why are you and priya planning to bash me?? maine tera kya bigada hai??
V..
Hi Sayesha,
CONGRATULATIONS!!!!
I've been a silent reader since August...Although I've read all your posts and loved each one of them, I just couldn't get myself to comment...But this one went straight through my heart...It is exactly what I feel, you have put it so beautifully in words...
When you live together with your loved ones, you're part of each other's lives automatically without having to ask or answer any questions...When you're away, phone calls, emails and all the advancement in technology does no justice whatsoever...Parents are proud of you even with the slightest thing(which may not be so great after all) but when you really accomplish something and share it with them, the feeling they have and the expression on their faces is priceless...
Well, that's how life is, isn't it?? If its any consolation, you're not alone, there're many people sailing in the same boat...
Yeah, you're right; long distance relationships are such a pain...
Enjoy & celebrate...
Congratulations :-)
Congratulations Sayesha!! That's wonderful news. I knew...our Sayesha has so much potential....she will reach the sun and the starz and all that's beyond...in her own way.
Yeah, nothing can replace our family Sayesha. It feels sad to have them away, so far away, especially in times like these.
I hope that you get to meet them soon enough. Live these moments with them as best as you can long distance...
Aur hum hain na Sayesha...
Everyone together!!! Sayesha in the center..
Smile please.....!
*CLICKKKK*
(camera shutters open and close)
:-)
Ohoh..the above comment was from me, Harshi....:-)) Sorry!
Hey Sashy!
I know my wishes are coming in quite late, but sending a bear hug your way:0
Like I said, "Mom is a phone call away". Send in sweets home, and it will just be the same:)
Chal can I have "Sex on the beach" please:D
Congrats.. :-)
And damn you for reminding me of the "distance" factor.. :-(.
congrats! :)
Congratulations...
I used to wonder how your writing is so exemplary - now I know - you are a senior editor...
Good to know that you are pursuing a profession in which your talents would be really useful
Heyyyyyyyyy Congratulations girl!!!! :) I'm very proud of your achievement, but not least bit surprised... you're a STAR!!! :)
*e-huggie*
Wow...!! Congrats Sayesha..!! And ya homesickness sucks..!! It is these moments when u feel real lonely...!!
#Croondoodle,
Thanks! :)
#Banana,
Thanks, girl! Now gotta concentrate more of my energy on you :)
#Inhas,
You do have a point, but when something big happens, you just wish this was the time you were together, hai na? :)
#Rohit,
Thanks, buddy! The li'l girl's gonna stick around. And she's gonna party hard! :)
#Ankur,
Thanks! :)
#Divya,
Welcome to Sayeshaz! And thanks! :)
#Virdi,
Thanks, praji! You are very bashable ji! :P
#Soumya,
Welcome to Sayeshaz! Thanks for putting in so much time into that thoughtful comment, babe! :)
ps: Yeah, I SO wanted to see the expression on their faces! :(
#Kroopz,
Thanks! :)
#Harshi,
Babe, I was wondering ki yeh kaun hai anonymous... sounds a bit like Harshi... and it IS you!! :P
Thanks! I really feel very fortunate to have you guys around to share my happy and sad moments... :)
#Viks,
Haha! Yeah man, come over! We'll party! You and I with tequila, Virdi with Shakeela! :D
#ROS,
Hey baby, got the hug, it was still warm! Thanks! :)
//can I have "Sex on the beach" please
Jo karna hai kar meri bachi, you don't have to ask me just because I am your soul sister! ;)
#Leon,
Thanks and dammit! :)
#Viks,
Okay, now I HAVE to listen to it! :P
#Chugs,
Thanks! :)
#TCR_79,
Exemplary writing? Wow. Thanks, am honoured! :) But actually speaking, what I write on my blog is very different from what I write at work (cartoon briefs, explanation of scientific concepts, book blurbs, etc.) And my engineering training doesn't help in my writing either! :P
My belief is that anything written dil se and written simply is always good writing :)
#Princesse,
Thanks, girl! :)
#L,
Thanks! :)
ps: Yeah, homesickness sucks! :(
Congratulations!!
Congrats
So watz the new cocktail for ths occassion @ da bar
TC
Congrats! :)
Wow.wow.wow.congrats sayesha !!!! you know i slept through a class i had to attend coz of my superlow attendance in it and then our advertising management class test results were released and I stood 21st in a class of 26 n then came back to my room to find that a cat had spilled the dustbin and then kicked open the door in frustration to look at my room and think 'man , the only thing that looks in place are the walls in here' and then i log to your blog and now I feel "man , i am happy !!".congrats :).and udaas na ho , I bet ur mom can feel her bitiya's happiness :).when hearts connect , distances do not matter.
Wow, you could tell it was me from my writing!? Hahaa :-)
#Mr. Quipster,
Long time no see! Thanks! :)
#HoliDevil,
OJ, what else?? :D
#Kais,
Thanks, man! :)
#Abhi,
Thanks! :)
ps: Hope your room is in a better state now! :)
#Harshi,
Kya karein, aadat ho gayi tere presence ki Sayeshaz par, perhaps subconsciously I was looking for your comment, which also helped! :)
Oh my god. That post really made me go "aww". So cute. I felt like hugging the little girl away from her family. Congrats!!
Congrats, Ms. Editor.. oops.. Senior Editor
Soon to 'come out', but still Anon911
#Ravi,
Hey, thanks for the e-hug! :)
#Anon911,
Gosh, you're still Anon?? Baahar niklo bhai sahab, we're waiting for your blog! :)
No need to be honoured... I think your writing is very good... And the reason is you keep it simple and yet they are powerful...
You do not use gloss or good words to make your post good. You use just good and strong thoughts and convictions
The flow of thoughts show clarity and that helps...
Overall I would give an A+ - am impressed
#Aye Kay,
Thanks! :)
#TCR_79,
A+? Wow! YEAY! :D
You're right, I don't like to use too many glossy words. Mainly because I believe we don't think in seven-syllable words. Our thoughts are always very simple, and so should be their expression. Thanks for validating! :)
Yeah Sash. Haan, subconsciously, woh ho jaata hai, true :-)
Sayesha... COngrates..
Wow ! Seniour Editor.. proud on you & definitel yur parents will be.
Great you are moving on..Little girl..:)Cheer up..
You made me nostalgic too :)
love,
Maneesha
#Harshi,
:)
#Maneesha,
Thanks a ton! :)
:)
I agree... And the greatest orators and writers have communicated using simple language
Keep it up - i will keep dropping by
Bhai-sahib ya Behen-ji .. kaun karega decide?
As-yet-undecided, Anon911
Congrats!!
Couldn't agree with you more. For me, a good news is incomplete unless i call up my mom n dad.
#TCR_79,
Thanks for supporting my blog :)
#Anon911,
My bad, boss! Maaf kar do bhai/behen! :P
#Raj,
Hey, thanks! :)
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