Thursday, August 10, 2006

Hit and miss

Hi,

So you're back.

Where had you been, you dhakkan? I missed you. A little bit.

Hope your trip was good. Thanks a lot for not being in touch while you were away. No, I am not being sarcastic. Sometimes I really need phases when I pretend that you don't exist. Perhaps this is what they call a love-hate relationship. Hit and miss.

You're back at a good time. My new semester started this week. A lot has happened in your absence. My days are getting full again.

Monday night: Language class
Tuesday night: Dissertation meeting/dissertation writing
Wednesday night: Campaign Design class
Thursday night: Public Communication Strategies class

All this with a fulltime job on the side. A friend said I am being too harsh on myself. Another said I may have signed up for more than I can handle. They're partly right, but you know me. I don't want to allow myself to slacken because of my strong belief that the human body and mind take no time to turn into instant slobs of fat and laziness respectively if you don't run a tight ship. We're just bull-shitting ourselves when we think we're too busy with stuff. There's always time for everything. If we really want to do something, that is.

So yes, I run a tight ship of discipline in my life.

But the truth is - without you I probably won't be able to do as much as I am doing now. Without your encouragement and support, things won't look as effortless to the world as they do. I am amazed at the fact that you're still around me. In spite of me. Sometimes I feel I'm being selfish. I slam you about how much you annoy me, and make fun of you on my blog every now and then. In spite of all that, I want you to know that I do appreciate your presence in my life.

And the fact that you respect my need for your absence at times.

Thank you for leaving me alone.
Thank you for coming back to me.

I guess we have a really strange relationship. But I do know that I probably wouldn't be me if you were not you.

You complement me. And so I decided that for a change, I should compliment you.



44 comments:

Avs said...

Hi Sayesha,

I recently came across your blog while googling for something else and have really been enjoying reading it. I thought I must compliment you. Some sections are really inspiring.

MAC said...

Silver again!

Raam Pyari said...

silverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee



I have an IAN too!!!
its a bit like yours...but obviously he is different.
I think each IAN is diff from the other though they are essentially the same

My IAN never leaves me!!!!and right now also, he is at work telling me that i shud go back to billi ki padhai this very moment!
bye bye:|

satish said...

sud i read it first ot post a comment?? :-s

Raam Pyari said...

awww..mera silver mac ne leh liya!!!
BUt main iss adalat me apani baat rakhana chahti hoon!

me larrddd!!!
mac ne, mujhe yakken hai, post nahi padhi hogi!!
Mere iss bayan ka sabse bada saboot yeh hai ki
mac ne post ke baare mein kutch bhi nahi kaha hai apane comment mein

or saath hi, unka comment bhi buss doh shabdo ka hai!

iska matlab yeh haiki
na kewal main blog parr pehle aayi
aur maine post padhi parr , mee larrdd,saath hi maine bada comment bhi likha jisko likhane mein jyadah samay laga hoga.
(saboot k liye adalat, dekh sakti hai ki mac jee or mera, donoh ke comment ka time ekdum same hai dus baj ke ikyawan minute)

isliye saare sabuto se yeh spashta hota hai ki mac jee ke pehle main aayi..meane post padhi aur comment karra...
isiliye mein chahti hu ki mujhe nyay mile aur silver mujhe hi mile.

MAC said...

Me Lord(Lady?),

In my defence, I did not leave any comment because it would have had to be a mean one for me to be a genuine MAC.

So, the silver is mine and your latest post (like all the others to date) sucks! ;)

Nirwa said...

:-) I knew it would be something like this! :D

And I think every one of us has an IAN! and that's what keeps us running..

Nirwa said...

AND I AM BEFORE IPANEMA GIRL, WORLD GIRL AND AARTI

THENGA TO ALLLLLLL

SHOWING MY THENGA OF TOES TOOOOOOO

Rebellion said...

Hi Sash!

I just read 3 lines of your post and I was sure you were talking to IAN :)

Great to see him back, you really need him now and he's a nice faithful one to you :)

All the best dear,
Take care,
Aarti

@ Raam Pyari
Itni defending mat karo Ruchi. No matter what, you can't take silver, coz you take the GOLD dear :)
Anon comments don't get any metals :)

And in that case, I guess I get bronze!!!

Take care,
Aarti

Nirwa said...

also throwing my imaginery lotus at them! :D

Sayesha said...

#Avs,
Welcome to Sayeshaz and thanks! :)

#MAC,
Nope. :)

#Raam Pyari,
Your Ian never leaves you?? I'd hate it if mine was around me 24-7! :O

#Satish,
You've already made your choice. Phir kaiku poochh raha hai phaaltu ka? :|

#Raam Pyari,
And yeh baat ko korat-kachahri le jaane ki kya zaroorat thi? Tu meri behen hai, tujhpar duniye bhar ke gold silver nyochhawar. Bas bolne ki deri hai bacha! :)

#MAC,
Silver's gone, my dear. MACs don't even get scrap metal on my blog. Tch tch. :P

//and your latest post (like all the others to date) sucks! ;)

Awwwww... that's adorable. Thanks. :) Your comment (like all the others to date) sucks too :)

#Nirwa,
Yeah! Semester shuru ho gaya! Now I will also be running around again! Like you! :D

//SHOWING MY THENGA OF TOES TOOOOOOO

World Gal yeh padhke maar dalegi tujhko! Uska copyrighted phrase hai! :O

#Rebellion,
Hahaha! Jo log Ian ko jaante hain, woh turant guess kar lenge!
ps: Actually, there's a little more to this post than Ian, but only one reader would get it. :)

#Nirwa,
Hahahaha! Ek purana gana yaad aaya - phool aise na pheko, phool bade naazuk hote hain... in this case, not so nazuk tho :P

satish said...

toh i read the 'intoducing ian' post. hilarious! and i got to see the comments too, and they were hilarious too.(what a coincidence??!)

and more then that i got to see the puraane bewde who had been there from the start.(not exactly start but still..)

haan and about my ian, i definitely had one. pata nahin kahan marr gaya!!(quite literally!) ab toh jeevan mein koi taran-umang-ian(why doesnt it rhyme?? :X) nahin bacha hai. aur now i remember the times wen i was at eskool and waited eagerly to compete with guys of my calibre..well i am sure ian was definitely there with me back then! :(

chaliye bye! :|

//and am i also an anon commenter! (remember i am kinda little senti (and dukhi) rt now.)

Nirwa said...

URI BABAAAAAA!!!

WORLD GIRL, please mujhe maaf kar de.. pleaseeeeeeeeee!!!

*scared of being in bad books of firebrand girl*

I take back my toes.. er.. words! :P

Abhishek said...

sash, i read ur post abt Ian too... too gud... u see its difficult to hav covered up the backlog of ur posts already... i think i've been reading ur posts since the time of baby aish, i think...

anyway, I hav an Ian too... shows up rarely... and when he does... I'm a total mess filled wid guilt of not doing stuff I should ;)... he's away now, on a long vacation, and i'm chillin' out.. ;))

Abhishek said...

Read one of ur resposes... cummon... u're not the type who writes hidden "more to it stuff" just for one reader.. ;))... let it out too...

shub said...

We're just bull-shitting ourselves when we think we're too busy with stuff.

soooooooo true!!

neihal said...

I guess we all have Ian....I think I identify it as naina....introduced her to the world sometime back on my blog :)

sakhi said...

nice conversation with your alter-ego :)
May God bless u and Ian with a long, happy and successful life!
tc
sakhi.

Sakshi said...

"You complement me."
That sounds like a diamond advt..
This year tell her..
Seems like you are going to be busy this year.
Good luck.

dharmu said...

tapori bhai, this is a sos comment. hoit orkut after a month and saw u missing. kya hua? underground hogaye kya?

hero is not very happy with the tapori bahi missing.

The_Girl_From_Ipanema said...

all the best, hope you and ian kick the dissertation's ass.
:) cute post that was.

Shekhar said...

Mera IAN kab milega ???

Duhita said...

Busy bee, good luck with everything thats on your plate and hope IAN pays me a visit one day too:)

Sayesha said...

#Satish,
Hahahaha! Your comment was super hilarious! Maza aa gaya padhke Friday morning ko :)

//and am i also an anon commenter! (remember i am kinda little senti (and dukhi) rt now.)

No, dear, you're not. Anon commentators don't make it to my Yahoo messenger! ;)

And don't be dukhi, it's a Friday! :D

#Nirwa,
Hahahaha! Baal baal... I mean... toe-toe back gayi! :D

#Abhishek,
Haha! It's high time you called Ian back, otherwise you'll turn into a pot-bellied lazybum! :O
ps: Hope you can catch up with the backlog soon :)

//u're not the type who writes hidden "more to it stuff" just for one reader.. ;))... let it out too...

Heh heh heh! :P

#Shub,
:D

#Neihal,
Arre wah, Naina? Achha naam hai... tere naam se bhi achha! Kidding kidding! :P

#Sakhi,
Hahaha! Thanks! :D

#Sakshi,
Tell her? Whom? Tell what? Tu bhi Aarti ki tarah piyeli hai kya? :P

//Seems like you are going to be busy this year. Good luck.

Thanks! Need it! :)

#Dharmu,
Oye hero, apun ka paila wala account (jisko apun delete mara tha frandship requests se pareshaan hokar) achanak zinda ho gaya re... got a notification that some school friends from 16 years ago had found me there! :O Decided to kill the new account and continue with the old one :)

#Ipanema Gal,
Thanks! :) Haaan re... dissertation ka bhot tension hoga is saal! :O

#Shekhar,
Aayega, zaroor aayega... dharti ko cheer ke aayega, ambar ko phaad ke aayega! Hahaha! Karan Arjun ishtyle! :D

Sayesha said...

#Duhita,
Thanks yaar! I hope your Ian visits you soon too! There's a lot to do in life! :)

Abhishek said...

allright sash, no point diggin' more-to-it stuff outa u... u'll write a post about it urself one day.. ;))

and ian will be back when chillin' time's over.. i'm lazy anyway... until then... keep rockin' ... ;))

Sayesha said...

#Abhi,
// allright sash, no point diggin' more-to-it stuff outa u... u'll write a post about it urself one day.. ;))

Eeesh, you know me too well! :P

Duhita said...

So Sash does that mean ppl not on your messenger list become anon commentators??? *sniff sniff* Chals nevermind, my only consolation, it's a FRIDAY

Sayesha said...

#Duhita,
//So Sash does that mean ppl not on your messenger list become anon commentators??? *sniff sniff*

Hey bhagwaan, tum sab aaj milkar Sash ko paagal kar doge! :|

A person on my Yahoo messenger is known to me. But does it mean that everyone known to me is on my Yahoo messenger? Samjha kar bachi. :D

Duhita said...

hehehehe Sash, haven't you heard of tp emotional blackmail every once in a while?:p I enjoy all the drama, motion, tragedy, ekdum filmy!!!:D

The Smiling Girl said...

U knw what, I wasnt a bit shocked about knowing it was Ian.. :)
I was half-expecting it was him, and u know who I expected to be too..;), but then I confirmed that it was Ian when I saw the lines that u made fun of him on ur blog.. :)

See baby.. I know u better now..;)

The Inquisitive Akka said...

Oh I am just a slob of fat and laziness:) Can you lend me your Ian? :)

The Lonely Traveller said...

Wow!! Now I know who waw behind my good grades in College? ;¬)
But, we are completely out of touch!!
And since I trust you, I will believe the he will be around if I ever need him again.

Have a great day.

Anonymous said...

hi again

published a comment today on yr omkara post. incase u have missed it, please read it.

asha

Anonymous said...

Until I saw the last line, i assumed you were talking about me. :( :P :D

-Sowmya

anu said...

badhiya hai !! :p

Anonymous said...

actually this post also reminded me of one with 'dhikki tiki dhikki tiki dhakk'!! i really didnt know who ian was, and actually thot he was ur boyfriend and had dumped you the previous night!! :P

=))

satish

Anonymous said...

actually this post also reminded me of one with 'dhikki tiki dhikki tiki dhakk'!! i really didnt know who ian was, and actually thot he was ur boyfriend and had dumped you the previous night!! :P

=))

satish

Rebellion said...

Sash,

//Actually, there's a little more to this post than Ian, but only one reader would get it"
Err.. umm.. Knowing me & my curosity, you know how questions are jumping in me but main aaj kal aap logon mein bohot badnaam hun so I keep my mouth shut :-$ :(
*sob sob*

Take care,
Aarti

Sayesha said...

#Duhita,
Aap toh sakshaat Meena Kumari hain - queen of tragedy! :D

#Smiling Girl,
:D

#Akka,
Hahaha! My Ian is not for rent. Get your own Ian! :P

#Lonely Traveller,
You have to summon him and he'll appear. ;)

#Asha,
Yes dear, I read it. Don't worry, I don't miss any comment! :)

#Sowmya,
Hahahahaha! Dare I call you a dhakkan? :P

#Anu,
Thanks :)

#Satish,
Sheesh! X-(
ps: That was my optician! Optician! Optician! X-(

#Rebellion,
Hahaha! Yeah, aajkal tu muh band rakh.. jaane kis baat ki itni khushi hai ki bar mein ghuste hi bewdi ho jati hai! ;)

Sudeep said...

Ian ka saccha naam bataa :D

nice way of writing a post..

btw, u have to write ur dissertation? ppl here type it on comp
must be ur prof is trying to improve ur handwriting coz last time i saw ur writing it was not legible :P

Sayesha said...

#Sudeep,
Areeee Ian ka naam Ian hai, aur kya! Kaisa dhakkan hai re tu! :)

//btw, u have to write ur dissertation? ppl here type it on comp

Yeah, I have to sit under a tree and write it on dried peepal leaves. Happy now? :/

:D

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