Friday, May 27, 2011

New kid on the blog - part I

You know how sometimes time simply seems to fly? It appears as if on Monday you received a wedding invitation from a couple, on Tuesday you attended their wedding, on Wednesday they told you they are pregnant, on Thursday you received an sms that went something like 'Blessed with a baby boy/girl weighing xx kg. Mom and child are doing well.' and on Friday you get an email (from the child, no less) saying, "Uncle/Aunty, please come for my 1st birthday." How does that make you feel? (Yeah, old, I know.) For most people, that's how fast and smooth the baby section of their lives seem to go. Of course, not everyone has it fine and dandy. There are also couples that are advised to terminate their pregnancy due to complications, or those who have to deal with the baby's and mother's lives being in danger, or those whose babies have to be in the ICU for months. But then these things are so rare and they always happen to other people, don't they?

Well, that's what we used to think too. Until the day Viv and I woke up to realise that we were the other people.

So the story starts on 9 Sep 2010 when Viv opened the birthday gift I gave him. It was a small box and inside was what looked like an iPod. But it wasn't an iPod. It was a positive home pregnancy test. (Yeah, I know. Cool way to break the news to your spouse. Touching and disgusting all at the same time.) I was toying between this and a highly dramatised version of a popular Bollywood scene of the 80s - "Main tumhaare bache ki ma banne wali hoon." but chose this one finally, because it meant that I did not have to buy Viv a separate birthday gift. I told him that this gift was so great that I did not owe him any more birthday gifts for the next decade. And he actually agreed.

We were elated. I was particularly excited because my sister, who lives in the US, was going to have a baby boy at the same time as I was going to have a baby girl! (Yes, I know. My mom shook her head at us and said, "Hey bhagwaan, main kahan jaaun?") We spent hours on the phone comparing symptoms ("Ooh you threw up breakfast? Yeay, me too! Same pinch!"). The first few months went by the usual way - throwing up, clothes getting tighter, wearing loose tops so no one at work suspected it till it was time to tell them, weird cravings (fortunately for Viv, no mood swings), etc. Speaking of weird cravings, the weirdest I had was for baby food. Yes, you read that right. And not just any baby food, but Cerelac (original), the baby food that I had had as a baby. Poor Viv went to Mustafa and got me three tins. (Yeah, he's a keeper. I know.)

We went for the usual doctor visits and everything was looking great. Until that one particular day when the doctor seemed to be frowning at the ultrasound. He measured the head and abdominal circumference, and the femur length a few times. His brow deepened. We asked him what the matter was. "The baby looks a little small.", he said. Small? So what? Babies are supposed to be small, aren't they? Besides, not all babies are born the same size. Some are just small. So we were not too worried. Until the next visit when the baby seemed to have fallen further behind in growth. The doctor asked us to go for a more detailed scan. The detailed scan said that the baby was fine structurally, but she was definitely very small. The case was classified as severe IUGR (intra-uterine growth restriction). IUGR is when the baby does not grow at the expected rate, and it can happen to a variety of reasons ranging from placental problems to chromosomal abnormalities.

"So what's next?", we asked the doctor. He said that he would continue to monitor the baby's growth, but suggested that we go see a specialist for a Doppler test to check if the blood flow through the placenta was all right. So we went to the specialist and that's the point where the faint lines of worry on our brows so far started to deepen. The specialist took a really long time scanning me, and then called another doctor who also spent a really long scanning me, and finally they said that they suspected that the baby had a heart condition called coarctation of the aorta. I still remember clearly what he typed in his report to my doctor - "Irrespective of the reason for the IUGR, prognosis looks poor." Then he turned to ask us what our religion was. It was a really strange question to ask, I thought. It was only later that I realised that he was trying to find if we had any religious restrictions regarding termination of the pregnancy. Termination?? I could not believe I was listening to someone talk about termination while my baby was kicking inside. But we had to be practical. If the baby really had complications such as a possible chromosomal disorder and a heart problem, what kind of quality of life were we promising her? The specialist left the decision to us but he was leaning towards termination.

We called my doctor and told him everything. He asked us if we were for termination. We said we needed some time to think about it, and that's when he told us that we had two days to decide and go through it because I was already in week 24, after which termination of a fetus is illegal in Singapore. Two days to decide whether we wanted to kill our baby?! I need not describe what Viv and I were going through. We decided to go for an amniocentesis the same day and try to get the results as soon as possible, even though normally it takes a few days for the fast results (that looks for a few common chromosomal defects) and a few weeks for the full results. Amniocentesis is this really scary test where they poke a needle all the way into the womb and collect some fluid right next to the fetus and test it for genetic abnormalities. We figured that if the test indeed showed a serious problem, we would at least have a solid reason if we went for termination instead of a 'suspected heart condition' in the baby. Amniocentesis has a 0.5% risk of miscarriage so there was a chance that even if there was nothing wrong with the baby, the test could do something to her! But this was really the best we could do so we went for the test. I had a screen in front of me where I could see the very long needle approaching my baby as the doctors carried out the test. Worse, they did not get any fluid at the first attempt so the test had to be done all over again!

I asked the doctor how the termination process would work if we opted for it. He said they would induce labour. Induce labour at 24 weeks?! I was to go into labour and give birth to my dead baby?? Only I know how I managed to keep myself from breaking down right there.

We were to get the FISH (Fluorescent In Situ Hybridization) test results in two days' time. This meant that if the results were poor and if there indeed was a serious genetic problem, we would go for termination the very same day. I went home, stayed in bed all day and bawled my eyes out, something I can't ever remember doing before. Meanwhile, Viv asked our doctor if we could get a second opinion on the scan. Our doctor recommended someone and got us an appointment for the next day. This doctor also scanned me for a very long time but did not say anything till the end. And what he said gave us the first ray of hope for the first time in several weeks. "I see no coarctation whatsoever.", he said. No coarctation whatsoever. Two contradicting opinions. Both experts in their field. What were we to do?

This doctor did say that he detected a hole in the baby's heart but it was something that could only be studied once the baby was born. He also said that if we were to keep the baby, I would need to go on immediate bed rest. The baby, if she survived, would most likely be premature and would need ICU care for months. He warned us of the ICU costs in the private hospital where my doctor was. Apparently a bed in the neonatal ICU can cost about $1000 a day. Yes, you read that right. $1000 a day! He showed us a picture of a similar case - an Indonesian couple who had twins and spent $100,000 on hospital bills. Bankrupt, they moved back to Indonesia.

So we went back to our doctor the next day who had the amniocentesis results with him. "The results are bad..." I heard him say. "Bad?? The results are bad??" My world came crashing down. "Back!" he quickly clarified. "Back, Sayesha, back. The results are back!! And everything looks fine." There were no genetic problems reported by the FISH test, although we would still need to wait a few weeks to know if there were none of the less common chromosomal defects. So, at that point in time, the only thing we needed to consider was the coarctation of the aorta. He left the decision to us. Though the test had ruled out major genetic disorders, severe IUGR still carried the risk of intra-uterine death. Add to that the possibility of the heart problem (coarctation and/or the hole) and the underlying reason for IUGR, which could be anything, and eventually manifest in anything.

We came back, called our families, and spoke to each other at length. And finally we made our decision. We would not voluntarily let our baby go. There just didn't seem to be enough evidence for us to opt for the worst. The baby was actively kicking, she had always been a kicker. Though I would have given anything to ask her what was going on inside, or to be able to deduce from her kicks what she wanted us to do, that was not to be. So in the end, we decided that if the baby was meant to leave us even before she met us, we would let it be her decision to make, not ours.

Read New kid on the blog - part 2.


monu said...

Hi Sayesha,
been a long time reader of your blog...and loved your sense of humour.. this post shows me that you are strong and a fighter..

i was almost moved to tears reading your post..
and i am so happy for the little girl you brought into this world with a lot of fight..

i wish the little one a healthy happy life

Obscure Optimist said...

Like monu said, I was moved to tears too.. and Now i know why Xena sounds so perfect. I do not know you personally, but I am very very proud of what you did as parents..
Wish you and xena all the happiness, good health and joy..

Waiting for more.. :)

Nandini said...


You are incredibly, incredibly brave.

yab said...

Whoa, sayesha! I totally totally support you and your fighter spirit.. not to mention Viv and your family have been incredible!!God bless you and family(with new member :)) happy and healthy life!!

nits said...

God bless you, Viv and the little one... and give all of you enough strength to go through it...

Manasi said...

Feel like hugging you right now! You went through so much.. and we were not even aware! and now that we are.. I am numbed reading all that you had to go through.. I could not believe that this happened to OUR Sayesha..

But you are a fighter and also your little one.. I am sooo proud of you and Viv.. and indeed very happy that you left the decision to the little one!

I respect you all the more now for all the courage and strength that you showed to handle this situation..

Lots of love to Xena.. she is very special..!

Deepa said...


Your daughter is no doubt a fighter just like u. As I was reading through, I couldn't believe what you had written... Was literally moved to tears. I was hospitalized in the 7th month coz I had some viral flu which wouldnt subside after 4 days (cudnt take any medication due to pregnancy)... the pressure on me to ensure that nothing went wrong with the kid was enormous... I can't even imagine ur's and viv's plight. Xena is even more special now :) She's such a darling... god bless u'll

naween said...

All the best to you and Xena :)

Meenakshy said...

Congrats dear.. She is so pretty and a fighter for sure.
I can so understand the feelings you went through, coz one of my pregnancies have been the 'other' one. Rest is past. Motherhood and babydom is such a bliss, trust me, all of the difficulties are worth it. Blessings, best wishes and loads of love.

Novice Makeup said...

congrats on ur little bundle of joy... and more so for being so brave....

i had tears in my eyes reading this...

Kanan said...


Best part was: "...we would let it be her decision to make, not ours..."

God bless You & Baby Xena.

Kanan said...

PS. I was so happy to read that "Back, Sayesha, back. The results are back!! And everything looks fine" and I know that everything is and will be fine. :)

Archana said...

Oh my dear God! Hugs to you! I can't even imagine how tough that whole phase must have been. You both are fighters and no wonder the baby is one too!

Congratulations on the birth of little Xena - she is a genuine warrior!

~ PragyaN ~ said...

all these while your blogs have made me laugh like anything, now this is the one which made me cry (sitting in the office!)
Liked the last line of the blog! Xena is indeed special. Best wishes to all of you!

Granger Gab said...

Hugs and Viv are very very brave. I'm proud of you but more of that little princess Xena of yours. I read your blog - it is one of my favourites. I did not know what to make of your last post on baby Aish wanting to trade her brother for a girl:-)) congrats to you and Viv . May the little girl bring all the happiness in your lives :-)
Hugs again.

Ramya said...

I have read your blog for so many years, but have never commented. This post moved me so much I had to let you know - I can't imagine going through what you did, I think you are incredibly brave.

All the best for you and your family, especially the little baby.

central excise said...

Xena's grand entrance to the world does bring tears to my eyes. But she will bloom beautifully and quickly as she has got two good persons as mom and pop.

Sandhya said...

Hugs, Sayesha. The last paragraph moved me to tears. Little Xena is a fighter. She will recover soon. God bless the little one with lots of happiness, health and longevity. Viv and you have made the best decision. You have been strong and saw the tough situation through with determination. I am sure you will be very good parents to the warrior princess. Hugs again.

ಅಶ್ವಿನಿ/ Ashwini said...

Bravo! to you and Viv and Xena i would say. All of you have gone through the tough times and finally Xena's arrival brings the joy.. Congrats again Sayesha.

Stupidosaur said...

Oh hugs! Great decision you guys! The baby is so cute!

I am sorry I was away from blog visiting scene for a few days and missed 3 major posts in your life! But you can imagine how my experience through reading this top post must have been, when I hadn't yet seen the older posts under it which say the baby is fine an born! Though nothing compared to what you guys went through!

May Xena (wait, is that her real name?), Viv and you have a wonderful happy life ahead :)

Technofun said...

Hey god Bless you, Xena and Viv too. I can understand how tough it must be on both of you.

Cant write nything more now, in tears :(

Divya R Rao said...

Hi Sayesha,
Its been three years since I'm reading your blog. But I had never commented. I cant believe you went through all this! I cant stop my tears!
You and Viv are really strong!
May God bless you :-)

Usha said...

Hi Sayesha,
I have lurked your blog for ages... ! I loved u for the silliness and laughter .. and now admire u for ur strength and courage.

You viv and lovely Xena will be in my prayers...


Anita said...

Hi Sayesha.. have been reading ur blog for years but have never dropped in a comment.. this is my first.. extremely happy for u both.. and for the little angel..
it was very touching to read this post.. you both were very brave ! i know to what extent these scans can scare u..
wishing all happiness for the little princess..

Sudeep said...

Lost for words. A big hug to you and Viv. I respect you guys more now. I am sure we all wish and pray that Xena lives up to her name.

The Soul of Alec Smart said...

Sayesha, sending warm hugs your way. I had not understood what you meant by the fights she fought and the ones she'll need to keep fighting. But now I do. Making a decision of this magnitude can make one feel so drained and so powerless, but you guys took the best option :) You're a very brave person and so will be Xena (a name I love, btw). Waiting to hear more from your end. said...

I am only half way through the post and I will have to come back again to complete it. I am not able to hold myself back.

Geomon said...

I dunno what to say. I too was moved to tears, and there was the sense of relief flooding through when i saw the snap of 'Xena'.
I only want to say that till today we really loved the Bhai and Viv for the fun they were. Today we love them for the people they are. And respect them even more for what they have done for Xena.
Long live the warrior princess. Our lil' tequila shot would go a long island way :D
am still at a loss of words. wish i cud be like baby Aish. :)
Congrats to all three of you!

Neha said...

Hi Sayesha,

I have been reading your post but never commented... But this one I had to...
I can't even imagine how difficult it would be for you and your family to go through these.
You have been a fighter and so is baby Xena..
May God bless you Viv and baby Xena..

Warm Regards

Pritam said...

Like everyone has already said before, you both have been so brave and I cannot even begin to imagine what you must have gone through! My best wishes and lots of love to all three of you, specially, to baby Xena!

Myriad said...

Have been reading ur blog for a very long time ...4 yrs i guess... first time i am leaving a comment..u guys have been so brave.. baby xena will live a long and great best wishes.. :)


Baatein unkahi si said...

you are very strong, you know that? I went through a fraction of this during my first pregnancy (I have to write birth stories some time) and I lost myself there. big hugs and congrats to you and Viv. May all the best wishes and prayers be with you.

Arun said...

So incredibly brave and tough - the three of you! All the very best, and thanks for sharing your story!

Arun said...

And you kept blogging through this!

RT said...

Can't believe I made a comeback to your blog with this post!! I hate you for not letting me know earlier and hate myself more for not being able to keep up the communication with you, esp when you needed a shoulder! Love you still... Give my regards to Viv and waiting for the "continued part" :)

Doli said...

Oh Im so proud of you after reading this .. Waiting to hear the next part.

Hema said...

It takes a lot of courage to make a decision of that kind. Hugs to you! I can only imagine how it must have been for you and your family to handle all of this. Little Xena is truly precious :) Hope she is doing well now...

Thanks for sharing with us Sayesha. Proud of you.

God Bless...Love to Xena.

Achu said...

*Lots of hugs*
You and your daughter are true fighters. I hadn't expected any such thing coming. God bless you both!! I'm sure your daughter will take on you and be true to her name.. Take care.. said...

She will live a long, healthy & beautiful life. With so many people praying for her, she has too!
May god give you & viv lots of strength. And she looks so adorable :)

VM said...

You guys are very brave. Wish you all the luck and courage to fight it in future. Looking forward to part II.

It's amazing how nicely you have written, its horryfying to write back about the difficult time one has been to.

Prats said...

Hi Sayesha,

*Hugs* to you and Viv for going through this pain.

Wishing & Praying all well for you and the baby Sash.

sheila said...

Hi Sayesha
I read your posts once in a while but have never left a comment. This time I just couldn't walk away without saying this...

you are an example of 'never give up and fight till the end'! God bless your family and beautiful girl.

Porkodi (பொற்கொடி) said...

Bravo mommy! I know I cant say anything sensible here. Glad everything is fine!!! Hugs to all of you!

Thisisme said...

This was truly moving! Guess what only today morning I happnd to see a real life case on discovery which was vry similar.I can totally related with the pain u mst have gone thru!
its a brave decision to go ahead and m sure given ur n viv's genes, xena is defntly going to be a warrior princess :)
blv u me ...with so much of love going on for her , u n viv, she will defntly make it big :-)

Art said...

kudos to u and ur family... Baby Xena took the right decision :)

Sonal said...

I cannot even imagine going through what you guys went through! I am sending lots of positive vibes and energy your way to help you all through these tough times. Baby Xena is precious and so totally worth everything that comes your way! :)

Stone said...

Don't know what to say....hmmm just want you to know that we too used to think such things happen to "other people" till it happened to us; our baby came 3 months before due date. Rest of story is same as yours.

Hang in there!
Hugs to all three of you.

Jina said...

I am soo glad u wrote this. Now she have atleast 100 more prayers n good wishes with her-she HAS to grow up strong, beautiful and intelligent like her mom (and dad too).

Btw, I eat Cerelac (and Im not pregnant, yet..;)).

Nat Sriram said...

Words fail me Sayesha...Hats off to you guys and Baby Xena and ofcourse Congratulations !!!

visajet said...

Long time reader, infrequent commenter: As a new parent of a baby that spent over a 100 days in the NICU, I can imagine the difficult times your family is going through.

Our prayers are with you and your little one. Keep the faith. Given our long stay in the NICU (in the US though, nto SIngapore), we would be happy to share any experiences/information about it. Feel free to shoot an email if needed.

All the best.

Esha - People for the Blind said...

And you were going thru all this while writing those bolly wood quizzes and the works? Exactly what do u think the bewdas are?? Had u told us sooner, we would have called upon EVERY SINGLE DOC known to us, and done whatever to help.. at the very least, we would have been WITH you.
I hope you NEVER have to go thru sth like this again.. but next time Bhai is in trouble, the bewdas will be ROCK SOLID behind you.. ok? Bas bata dene ka, baaki apan log dekh lenge..

Bhavya said...

I think I read this about three times before it all actually sank in. This is the kind of story that moves me to tears but also gives me the courage to deal with my own problems. I wish you and Xena a healthy and happy life and look forward to hearing the rest of the story

zilch22 said...

I cannot tell you how deeply you have made me feel your situation with the simply way in which you tell your story. Tough times, wise decision, congratulations!!! May your love for each other help you through your troubles and give you the strength to carry on.

Ashwin said...

Read this post before the one with the pic of baby Xena. Halfway through the post, I had tears in my eyes. The way you and Viv have dealt with your struggles is very inspiring. It puts the trivial things that we sometimes whine about in perspective.

Lots of prayers for good health, peace and happiness of baby Xena.


sd said...


G2 said...

No words... just respect.. Sayesha! U just got urself Mommy of the year Award! and Xena is the most beautiful trophy!

I can barely see the screen as i type this message.. my eyes r full of tears..and as cliched as it sounds... ye khushi ke aansoo! Love ya!

Shalaka said...

cannot imagine what you guys must have gone through.. wish you the very very very best and plenty of hugs for xena - awesome choice of name btw!

wanderlust said...

Been a regular reader of your blog but never commented. This time I just had to. I am so very glad for you , God bless the little one and the two of you!

Anubhuti said...

Dear Sayesha,
This is the first that reading your blog made my eyes welled up.
Wish you and your little princess all the very best! I am sure she will win every battle like she has done till now!
Take care both of you1

astha said...

all the love to Xena...
Sayesha...I have been reading your blog since last few years..but rarely commented...but this time i had to tell you that how proud I am of you and Viv...Xena sure is going to rock her life with such brave and beautiful family..wish her good health and great life ahead..

Anonymous said...

Dear Sayesha,

Have been reading your blog for past few years and it always made me chuckle and appreciate your lively, active and bindaas attitude. Congratulations to the proud parents and love to princess Xena..She is a daughter of the brave parents and she is surely going to win all the battles coming her way....

Lots of hugs and wishes

vineet said...

You guys are incredibly brave. The pain that you went thru, the courage of going ahead is truly remarkable.

No matter what you did, this girl 13 years later will tell you " You dont understand anything mom"

NIKHIL said...

All love and good health to Xena - daughter of proud and brave parents.

jijnasha said...

Hi Sayesha,
Congrats dear.Your daughter is as brave fighter as U. I cant stop my tears!
I am so very glad for you , God bless Xena and the two of you

rt said...

Hats off to you both and the warrior princess as well!!!
God bless u all!

Rahul Katarey said...

Congrats!! for a great decision!! Its very easy to let go. very hard to hang on... Bless You, Viv and most of all Xena...

A G said...

@Bhai: I'm so proud of you!
You've made me smile through your writing so many times! I wish you,Viv and Xena all those smiles and many more in return!
You are plain awesomeness! :)

@Esha People for the blind: Well, I am glad that Sayesha did not post 'all serious things' about the pregnancy!
It just shows how strong she is and where Xena gets her spirit form.That she maintained her composure in her posts,is a form of courage!


Alice said...

Xena.. she looks feisty, alright. Read what is part 1(and you say more to come).. and you were right, it always happens to 'other' people. You have been very brave.. bless you all. Special hugs and kisses to the princess from far far away..

Take care.

Reema said...

One of the long time lurkers of your blog..I was moved to tears reading this post. Kudos to you both for being so brave. God bless Xena. May she have a happy ahead. Congratulations to you and Viv.

Soumya said...

I cannot even begin to imagine what you guys must have gone through. My respect for you just went up hundred folds. I salute your decision and the strength behind it.
Baby Xena is a fighter all right and she is lucky to have such brave and rock solid parents. I wish you and Viv and Xena the best of everything life has to offer.

Sneha Acharya said...

Hey Sayesh aand Viv ... Many Congratulations on the baby girl ... and above many congratulations on being so positive ... Ur baby is indeed a warrior ... ALL THE BEST WISHES TO HER :_))

bluejay said...

Hey sayesha and Viv.. I studied Human genetics..and I tested so many couples where the FISH test results weren't good.. it was always heartbreaking to tell them that.. I am so glad yours was good :) Yippee!.. You indeed have fighter..all the best wishes :D

S-H-A-D-O-W said...

Salute your spirit, Gold bless your family and keep Xena always happy..

the mad momma said...

I really admire your spirit. God bless you.
PS: the brat had severe IUGR which is why I had to have the csec early and get him out. He's turned out okay, i think :)

Sayesha said...

Thanks. :)

Thank you! :)

Now you know why it was all under wraps. :)

Thanks! :)

Thanks! :)

Thanks! I got your virtual hug! :)

I totally know what you are talking about. The pressure is incredible. Am glad you came out of it ok. :)

Thanks. :)

It is bliss indeed. Hugs to you. :)

Novice Makeup,
Thanks! :)

Thanks! :)

Thanks! :)

Sorry for making you cry in the office!! :O hope your boss saw and gave you a fat raise! :D

Granger gab,
Thanks! :)

Thanks! :)

Central excise,
Amen! :)

Thank you! :)

Thanks! :)

Sorry for scaring you! Viv asked me to post her picture first before the detailed posts so I don't scare the bewdas into assuming the worst. Sorry sorry! :) Xena is her nickname. :)

Sayesha said...

Thanks. :)

Thank you! :)

You loved my silliness? YEAY! At last someone does! Muah back to you! :D

Thanks! :)

Thanks! :)

The Soul of Alec Smart,
Thanks! Drained and powerless... You said it! Glad it's all behind us. :),
Oh dear, sorry!

Thanks! Lil tequila shot! I like that! :D

Thanks! :)

Thanks! :)

Thanks! :)
PS: 4 years and first comment?? Mogambo khush nahin hua!

Dil se,
Thanks! :)

Thanks! :)
PS: Yep, couldn't shut down the bar, could I? :)

The DJ is here,
Sorry yaar, we were in no frame of mind to 'announce the pregnancy'. I just wanted to see the baby alive and well before telling anyone. Hope you're doing good! :)

Thanks! :)

Thank you! :)

Thanks! :)

Thanks! :)

Thanks! :)
PS: Horrifying, yes. But definitely something for me to come back to for a dose of perspective. :)

Thanks! :)

Sayesha said...

Thanks! :)

Thanks! :)

Thank you! :)

Thanks! :)

Thank you! The immense power of positive vibes, thank you again! :)

Thanks for sharing. Much love and good wishes to your little one. :)

Thanks! :)
PS: I had cerelac for breakfast this morning! Gotta finish it, am on the last tin now! :)

Thanks! :)

100 days?! Gosh! Best wishes to your little one. :)

The bar must stay open! :) Besides, we had had enough second third fourth opinions and did not want to see more doctors. We just put our trust in our doctors and went ahead with it.

Thanks! :)

Thanks! :)

Thank you! :)

Thanks! :)

Trophy indeed! Thanks. :)

Thanks! :)

Thanks! :)

Thanks! :)

Thank you! :)

Wishes galore,
Thanks! :)

Sayesha said...

Thanks. :)
PS: The 13 years later scenario doesn't sound good. :(

Thanks! :)

Thank you! :)

Thanks! :)

Thank you! :)

A G,
Thanks! :)

Thank you! :)

Thanks! :)

Thanks! :)

Thank you! :)

Waiting for the genetic test results was pure hell.. Gosh! My hearta goes out to those who had bad results. :(

Thanks! :)

The mad momma,
Oh dear, you too? Glad the brat is ok now! :)

Dangerously Detached said...

A little late this response is. I used to read your blog regularly way back in 2005-2006 and then intermittently in 2007 - 2008 but somehow after that I lost touch. Lots of parallels in your life and mine, ok some. :) We seem to be around the same age, I am '81 born, got married around the same time and were due to deliver around the same time.

Except I lost my perfectly healthy baby girl in the 27th week. So I did have to give birth to a dead girl and my husband had to bury her. It'll be 2 years in March.

I've survived though. And reached a point where I can feel happy at others' babies :)

Really happy to read your story had a better beginning than mine.

God bless your warrior princess :) And you!


Bhavya said...

Like you said Sayesha, we always think that this sort of thing will only happen to "other" people. I am also going through a similar situation where I am being advised termination due to problems and I have no idea what I should do. I am praying for God to give me the strength to prepare for the worst and the wisdom to make the right decision. Coming back to read your post again made me feel a little better. Thanks again for sharing your story.